Thursday, June 11, 2009

Back online!

For those people who are wondering what happened to me, be assured that I'm still around. Just that I forgot the password to my account and wasn't really bothered to reapply for one. Well, yeah. That's the gist of my inactivity.

Looking back to my teenage years made me realise that I was so immature way back then. I just had to do things MY WAY, and not do what is right for me. I do not know how much was my own will and how much was just plain old stubborness against authority, but it seriously affected my relationship with people who cares about me.

It can be so fustrating when you see someone acting like you when you were, as it acts like a mirror for your soul. You might not like it, but it is you. You can try to hide it with other actions, or just bury it, not letting it surface out again. But no matter how much you try to hide it, or how deeply you try to conceal it, it will just surface again. And once it surfaces, trying to avoid or lie your way out of the situation will only make it worse, no matter how good the intention might be.

By faith, I am healed. By grace, I am cleansed. But only by discipline can I truly say that I am changed.